by Antonette*
Insecurities increase,
with daily verbal abuse
and death threats,
All because of the way I dress.
Aging tranny bitch queen,
tattooed masculine lines,
some ‘bull-dyke’ on steroids.
Nice figure,
but face like Freddie Krueger,
the serial killer.
Why can’t people let me be?
Constantly judging
by first appearances.
You can’t judge
by looking at the wrapping.
The woman in me,
dying to be accepted.
The public forces the Queen
to put the dresses away
after a certain age.
The abuse and constant danger,
Forces the she-male
to only come out at night,
if at all.
Imprisoned by letting the forces
of the shallow general public,
To intimidate the feminine side,
so she must fade away
and hide.
The tranny bitch submissive Queen,
Too old to be seen as anything other
than a sexual deviant,
Fallen so far.
Starting over again
at the bottom,
Can’t get much lower
than a tranny working the stroll.
Shit on from all sides,
an abnormality.
Can I keep going,
dressing daily for my femininity?
Old memories,
sadden the heart,
vacant loneliness,
Stress upon stress.
Afraid I might kill
some ignorant young fuck,
For his ill timed,
homophobic foul mouth.
Don’t look 30,
but awesome for 50-something.
Strong masculine lines
and tattoos,
Constantly reinforce
the fitting handle
of,
Miss Understood.
* I found this wonderful poem at the Queer History Project website. You can find the story of the poem and other amazing queer stories there.
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